When I first met her, I honestly didnt feel anything for her, but she was charming and really lovable. Ive never seen that in other girl. So I ignored those thinking to even like her, I guess, the timing was wrong since I was dating another girl and it would be wrong for me to even have a crush on her. As time went by, I broke up with my ex, and its like a miracle that I ended up could date that charming and lovable girl. Before i dated her, I felt there was no need to share everything to somebody, because he or she wont understand and will judge me. But not for this girl, she understands me, she cheers me up when Im down, she calms me down when Im mad. She was really charming and lovable. I dated her for more than 3 years, we were, I would say, a perfect couple. We were both happy, both love to eat, both love to watch NBA, both love to just have a lazy day together, both love to make fun of each other, both love to make silly faces, and we both love to make silly nicknames for each other. We were really, a happy couple. We knew each other very well, we love each other's lacks, we knew our limits towards everything, we basically built our relationship as a family. We built each other towards the better us. It felt so right to be with her. Nothing was wrong between us. She taught me how to love, what love really means. We pursued our dreams fearlessly.
Until that time came, I broke all the things that we had into pieces, that no one can even fix. I really regret for what I did at that time. I lost everything that I could have possible had. I gave her up too easily cos of my stupid emotion. I would like to continue spending the rest of my life with her, but I guess sometimes shit happens, sometimes life is unfair.
I really regret that I couldnt spend the rest of my life with her, I really do. She is my best memories, my craziest memories. I wish she is not only a memory, but I was wrong, I couldnt keep and protect her, i couldnt make her happy. I wish I could turn back time. I was really stupid and I regret it. But I hope that it is for the best. I hope she would be happy wherever life brings her to. I hope that she would able to catch all of her dreams, I swear she deserves it, she is a very independent girl, she would do her best always. I pray that she would be happy, even happier than when she was with me. She will be forever my girl and my dream that I couldnt have. If and only if, I could be honest to her, I wont let her go, I dont wanna break up with her. I want to be with her, forever. But I dont want to let her get hurt again. You will always have that special place in my heart that no one can replace it.
